No Worries, Pray Always.

I've had some issues. I think a lot, ya know? I realize things about myself all the time. Negative thoughts are so easy to get sucked into. It seems to be where my mind flows to without any interference. But when I think positive thoughts, it's like there's hundreds of interferences...all the negatives. Anyway, back to what I was thinking. I am not afraid of death. Anymore that is. I know, because it's the God-given truth, that this world is not my home. There's something else out there for me, and I hope that it's paradise in heaven. But then I think about what I AM scared of. I fear a life of unworthiness. And I know that I will never earn the worthiness of heaven. I have sinned, I still sin, I will sin. And I absolutely do not deserve heaven because of the life I've lived. So where's the hope? Well my pessimistic mind wants to tell me there is none. Ha. This reminds me of the 40 days Jesus spent in the wilderness, dealing with the temptations of Satan. I love when He says "Away from me, Satan!" It gets me every time. And even now I have to use that same line. I need to tell him to get out of my head. I know that he's the one interfering with my positivity and memory of all that Jesus Christ has done for me. When it comes down to the truth, I believe with all my heart that Jesus is my Savior, my God, my Truth. He's my best friend, my Father, my everything. And did I mention He's an amazing listener? I love Him, and I know, for a fact, that He loves me, too. So much that He died for me so that I don't have to worry about...well, anything. So why should I worry about unworthiness? We all know the things we've done, but Jesus took all of that upon Himself and died so we would be forgiven of all of it, as long as we have faith and believe that He died and rose again. I have to remind myself of all of this on a DAILY basis. It's so easy for Satan to say "Give up. You don't deserve what He offers you. Just come to me, I don't care what you've done." And I have to respond "Away from me, Satan! I'm saved by the GRACE of God, forever. No matter what. I still have faith. I am saved." It really has been an uphill battle in understanding how He could love me and forgive me ALL THE TIME. I still can't wrap my mind around it. But He tells us that we will never understand, because His ways are not like our ways. YAY! I am so grateful that He is who He is. How blessed are we to have such a forgiving, loving God? So remember, no worries. Pray always. He is with us, He loves us. Believe in Him, love Him, live for Him, and you will be with Him forever.